tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64897572612088834092024-03-14T02:02:49.559-07:00It Takes a Village: The Quest for Baby LaneAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-86429090915680716542015-08-18T15:23:00.002-07:002015-08-18T15:23:55.003-07:00Transfer Day!Reunited and it feels so good...<br />
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Transfer day was finally upon us and we were excited and nervous! Our transfer was scheduled for 2pm, so we had some time to get work done in the morning and get our ducks in a row. Steve and I decided to head to Reno early because of some predicted thunderstorms in the Sierra and I thought it would be nice to have lunch before our transfer. It would also give me a chance to use the restroom before stocking up on fluids as they require a full bladder with transfer and I didn't want to have to be stuck sitting in the car, dying to pee.<br />
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For lunch, we decided on Olive Garden and I got myself what will hopefully be my final diet caffeinated soda for quite a while, plus a water, which I waited to drink until after lunch. At the end of our meal, I went to use the restroom for the final time and the server brought the bill and politely asked Steve if we had any exciting plans for the rest of the day. "Why yes!" he responded, "We are going to be reunited with our embryos!" Needless to say the server was a little shocked by his response but wished us well, lol!<br />
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When we arrived at the clinic, a little early, I was already bouncing in my seat and by the time they called us back into the room, my eyes were filling up (from having to pee)! Dr. W showed us a picture of our thawing embryos (due to my age and embryo quality, we choose to transfer two) and due to the fact that one was hatching, he suggested we get the show on the road. This was much to my relief because I had to pee!<br />
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Both Dr. W and the NP commented on how full my bladder was but pushed on anyway and I was dying! I could hardly focus on anything but having to use the bathroom! I guess I didn't need the third water we took to go from OG.<br />
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In awe and amazement, we watched as the embryologist brought our little peanuts into the room and loaded them into the catheter and watched in awe again, on the ultrasound screen as we saw a little flash of white, that was our little peanuts being transferred into my uterus. It was magnificent, we were both speechless.<br />
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When it was over, Dr. W reclined the table and set the timer, 15 minutes of inverted calm before I could pee. He left the frozen ultrasound image of our transfer on the screen and put on soothing music and Steve and I reveled in the miracle that had just taken place. At that moment, I was pregnant until proven otherwise. I had two, perfect little miracles inside me. In a few weeks, we will know if one or both of our embryos have snuggled in for the long haul. We hope and pray that they do.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-35293706660307205672015-06-22T14:00:00.001-07:002015-06-26T08:30:31.586-07:00Introducing, our embryos!We were finally able to sit down with our doctor and discuss our embryos! We even got to see pictures of them and they are beautiful. The love I feel for these little bundles of cells is overwhelming. Our clinic grades embryos on a scale of one to three (one if the quality is not great and three is a perfect) and our embryos are all grade two, which is great news! That means that the cells that will develop into the fetus are grouped together nicely and the cells that will become the placenta are also formed together nicely.<br />
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I am all cleared to start prep for our frozen embryo transfer which means twice weekly inter-muscular shots for a few weeks and then every day inter-muscular shots of progesterone. These will be a little more intense than the every day shots I had to do subcutaneously but I know I can do it!<br />
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I noticed that we've had a lot of views on our IVF updates and I just want to thank everyone for your continued love and support! So without further ado, five of our six embryos!<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-51908550012458495142015-06-21T13:00:00.000-07:002015-06-21T13:00:00.007-07:00Final Embryo CountWe have SIX embryos! SIX! I am very happy with that, especially due to the face that for my age range, only 37% of embryos make it to day 5/6 freeze and over half of ours did!<br />
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I would have liked to transfer two of our little embryos back this week, but I am only now (almost a week later) starting to feel better from the OHSS and it would have been too dangerous for me to have had them transferred back. So, we plan to do a FET or Frozen Embryo Transfer next month and we will reunite with a couple of our embabies then!<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-34196440617099455752015-06-15T10:45:00.000-07:002015-06-21T12:28:48.640-07:00Egg Retrieval and First Fertilization Report!WOO HOO! We had 21 eggs retrieved and I am super uncomfortable. It is day two and I feel like death. I can barely move and it hurts to even laugh.<br />
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At our ER, the doctor informed us that doing an embryo transfer, in five days, as we had originally planned, will not be possible :( I have already started to develop OHSS, which is painful and is exacerbated by pregnancy. I am disappointed but in far too much pain right now to fully comprehend how much it sucks to have to wait to transfer any embryos we might have.<br />
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On the plus side, 15 of our 21 retrieved eggs were mature and 11 fertilized normally. So as of this moment, we have 11 little embryos chillin in the lab in Nevada! We expect this number to drop dramatically, as only 37% of embryos make it to freeze or transfer on day 5 (a freeze in our case due to the OHSS).Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-10887473907289048772015-06-15T10:41:00.002-07:002015-06-19T08:23:12.291-07:00Finally getting ready for ERMy originally egg retrieval date has been pushed back twice but now we are finally on track to stop the stabbing and get ready to have these eggs retrieved. My doctor gave the go ahead to do the trigger shot tonight, which begins the ovulation process, so that they can extract the eggs at my retrieval!<br />
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The only problem is that I am at risk for <a href="http://www.ivf.com/ohss.html" target="_blank">OHSS</a>, which is not surprising as I am already incredibly uncomfortable and my doctor says we should expect to retrieve somewhere between 15 and 20 eggs. So, for the next 7-10 days I am not allowed to drink water and must instead drink gaterade and whey protein shakes. I have a feeling this is going to get really old, really quick.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-10773273019529906452015-06-15T10:36:00.004-07:002015-06-17T11:05:24.841-07:00IVF is uncomfortableOur first monitoring appointment showed a good number of follicles on each side, which is great news. The only problem; they were growing kind of slowly so the possibility has arisen that instead of ten days of poking myself with multiple needles and buring medications, I will have to continue to do so for another day or two. At this moment, when I am bloated, uncomfortable, in pain and have ovaries the size of Kansas, the idea of continuing to shove needles in my distended stomach is not an appealing one. BUT, it will help us accomplish our end goal: to get as many mature eggs as possible for fertilization, so I will do it and I will try to smile while doing so!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-22292849187061626662015-06-15T10:32:00.001-07:002015-06-15T10:32:52.157-07:00And We're Off!A few weeks ago, I started a shot a day, with Lupron, to quiet everything down. The shots were easy, as the medication requires the use of an insulin syringe which are very small, so I barely feel a thing.<br />
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Things are moving very quickly and I have moved on to the big guns, two medications: Gonal-F and Menopur, in addition to the Lupron. These meds stimulate follicle growth. The hope is that my body will grow as many follicles (with eggs in them) as possible so the eggs can be retrieved in a little over a week and then fertilized.<br />
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I am normally terrified of needles. I hate them. I used to have panic attacks when I would have to get a shot or have blood work done but I have learned that this is a mind over matter thing. Not to mention the fact that I just don't have any other choice, IVF means injections. There are no oral meds for this so shots it is and shots I will do!<br />
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At first, I was icing my stomach before the shots so that I wouldn't be able to feel them (especially for the Menopur because the medication stings) but after a couple of icings, I realized I could still feel the shots so this morning I went ice free and it really wasn't that bad. So I am going all out, just poke and push, no icing necessary. One of the ladies I know said I was a bad ass for doing my own injections and for not icing but I have to say, I don't feel like a bad ass, I am just doing what has to be done.<br />
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My first monitoring appointment is coming up, at which, we will find out just how many follicles are growing and whether or not all these medications are working!<br />
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***a little side note: while I have written each of these posts as they occurred, I scheduled them to post a couple weeks after they were written. I've done this because if, for some reason, we have to deal with a negative aspect of IVF, I would like some time to deal with it privately before broadcasting it to the world***<br />
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Before starting IVF, the doctor does a <a href="http://www.insideradiology.com.au/pages/view.php?T_id=71#.VUKp_yFViko" target="_blank">Saline Infusion Sonohysterography</a> (SIS) or water ultrasound to make sure everything looks good inside the uterus so there aren't any problems with implantation after the embryo is transferred. Normally, it's a fairly quick and relatively painless procedure that only takes a few minutes, but I've never been accused of being normal. I've had two prior to this one and while uncomfortable, they don't last very long, and since my previous doctor never gave me any indication that he had seen anything but a "beautiful uterus and lining," I didn't expect to hear anything different this time.<br />
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I'll save you the gory details but basically, there were some difficulties with actually being able to get the catheter in, because my cervix didn't want to play. Then, when the doctor began to fill my uterus with saline, <i>I</i> could even see, on the sonogram screen, that something didn't quite look right with my uterine lining. For my first SIS, everything looked smooth and pretty and my lining was very even. For my second, there was one part that looked a little "thick" but nothing to be concerned about. For this SIS, my lining looked... weird. Like rolling hills, rather than the flat plains. What does this mean? <a href="http://txfertility.com/female-infertility/endometrial-polyps/" target="_blank">Endometrial or Uterine Polyps </a> which mean bad news for an embryo trying to attach itself to my uterine wall. The polyps just get in the way and stop little embabies from being able to hold on.<br />
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So, our only option is a <a href="http://txfertility.com/fertility-surgery/surgery-for-endometrial-polyps/" target="_blank">hysteroscopy and polypectomy</a> at the end of next week, before proceeding with IVF. We certainly don't want to attempt IVF without giving those pesky polyps an eviction notice! On the plus side, this will not delay the cycle but it does mean being put under so they can be removed. It also means that because it is infertility related, our insurance is of little help. Again. At this point, I am only surprised when we find out our insurance <i>will</i> cover something!<br />
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I know that we are in good hands with this doctor and he will do an excellent job but I am a little nervous, so I will take all the prayers and positive vibes I can get! I'm ready to get this part over with so we can get the IVF show on the road!<br />
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As always, if you would like to help contribute in any way, we would appreciate it! Please click on the "How to Help" tab at the top of the page.<br />
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This year I am kicking off National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW) by participating in Resolve’s, Bloggers Unite! I am excited to not only share with you information about Infertility but am happy to remind those who are suffering in silence that, you are not alone.<br />
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1 in 8 couples suffer from infertility. One in Eight! That means that you most likely know someone who is dealing with infertility and many go through this journey alone. I am sharing my story today so those who are going through the same thing know that they are not alone. I am also sharing my story to let everyone know what it is like to go through infertility.<br />
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Infertility is defined by the inability to conceive after a year of frequent intercourse. Due to the fact that I knew it would take a little while for us to get pregnant, we did not share the news with our family and friends in 2009 that we were trying to conceive, plus, we didn’t want our lives to revolve around trying to get pregnant. We were taking the laid back, it will happen when it happens approach and decided that we could pleasantly surprise everyone when it happened. I believed that if we just kept trying, if I just relaxed more and we just “let it happen,” then I would get pregnant because that’s what I have always heard. People say things like, “It will happen when God wants it to happen” or, “Just have fun! It’ll happen soon enough!” People don’t say things like, “If you’ve been trying for a year, you should see a doctor” or, “Have you tried temping and charting to make sure you’re ovulating?” In fact, we’re led to believe (since 5th grade sex ed) that it only takes once and you’ll be pregnant and for some people, that’s true but for many couples like us, that is not the case. We never imagined it would take so long. Month after month, year after year, nothing happened. Even armed with the knowledge that endometriosis would make it difficult to conceive, we expected with each month, that I would get pregnant. After four years, we had no surprise news to share and eventually, our doctor suggested that it was time to get help.<br />
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Going to the Reproductive Endocrinologist was not what I expected, although I will admit I went into it rather blindly. Many women do a lot of research before their first appointment; I just read the clinic’s website. When I filled out the book of forms before my first appointment, there was a question that said: What type of treatment option are you looking for? And I wrote: MAKE ME NORMAL. All I wanted and expected was to be given some kind of magic pill that would help me get pregnant. Easy peasy. Sadly, that was not the case.<br />
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First, there were a litany of tests; blood work, transvaginal ultrasounds, saline sonograms and a semen analysis. We were told that my husband’s tests were normal and everything looked good. On my end, however, we were looking at possible Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, Endometriosis, a blocked left tube and scar tissue around my right ovary.<br />
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To begin, we started with Femara, a trigger and timed intercourse. We just weren’t ready for anything invasive. We still believed that we just needed a little push to get pregnant. Just a little nudge and that would do it. Plus, the idea of the trigger shot alone gave me massive anxiety. I’m not a nurse! You want me to give myself a shot? The first time I did the trigger shot, I was so nervous, I poked myself and pulled the needle back out before I pushed the plunger! Fail! But the timed intercourse didn’t work. And then it didn’t work again.<br />
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We moved on to IUIs (intrauterine insemination) but still didn’t share our journey with anyone for two reasons. The first reason is that I wasn’t sure I could handle my own disappointment and the disappointment of everyone else. I already felt like a failure. This was MY fault. The second reason is because with each cycle, we were sure it was going to work. We were positive that we would still be able to surprise everyone with the news that we were pregnant.<br />
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Two months of medicated, timed intercourse, three IUI’s, one cancelled IUI and a year later, we were forced to accept that what we were doing wasn’t working. My doctor sat me down and said that it was time to move on to IVF.<br />
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IVF had always seemed like this expensive, dark, looming cloud. For the longest time, I thought it was only something celebrities and other rich people were able to utilize and we assumed that if we ever came to this point, it would be the end of our journey because it was not something that was obtainable for us. IVF is not covered by our insurance. Until that point, we have been fortunate enough to have some insurance coverage for my infertility treatments, however, due to recent changes in the health care system, we will no longer even have the coverage that we once did. While our policy says that it covers “50% of the diagnosis and treatment of infertility” there is a large list of exclusions including: medications for the treatment of infertility, artificial insemination and IVF. So basically, it doesn’t cover anything at all. While the little coverage it does offer is somewhat helpful for testing, it does not help people like me with blocked tubes and scar tissue build up from endometriosis.<br />
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Who has close to $20,000 just sitting around waiting to be used to make a baby? While there are loans for infertility treatment available, the interest rates are incredibly high. Just the idea of applying for a loan is daunting. You find yourself thinking, if I get a loan that I have to make payments on for two or three or four years, what will I be depriving my future child of in order to be able to make the loan payments? How will I pay for their needs and contribute to a college fund and pay for the loan I had to take just to be able to get my body to work properly so I could have the child in the first place? Instead of just the normal financial concerns of how to afford having children, you have to add the amount of money you have to spend just have the chance to have a child.<br />
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BUT, ever the optimists, we decided to try and figure something out. We started saving and fund raising. We cut back our spending to practically nothing. Want a candy bar? Nope. We need to save the money for IVF. We stopped eating out, cut down our cable bill and stopped going shopping for anything that wasn’t a necessity. There was a time when I bought a pair of $50 shoes without batting an eye. Now, I side eye shoes priced over $15 and only buy them if I have worn through the soles on my only pair. So here we are today, moving forward (finally) with IVF and speaking out so that other's know they are not alone.<br />
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That is why I have such a passion for Infertility Awareness and NIAW is especially important to me. I believe that we need to change the social stigma that surrounds infertility and educated each other about what infertility looks like and what the treatment options are. It is a taboo subject in our society which makes many people afraid to talk about it or speak up when they are suffering. We infertiles beat ourselves up enough, we already feel broken or damaged and making infertility a taboo subject makes us feel like outcasts.<br />
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So speak up, support your friends who are suffering from infertility and educate yourself so you understand what it means to be infertile and what the treatment options are. No one should go through a journey like this alone.<br />
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Go to the Then Comes Family facebook page and download a banner to use as your Facebook cover picture to let everyone know that you support the 1 in 8 who suffer from infertility: <a href="https://www.facebook.com/ThenComesFamily?fref=ts">https://www.facebook.com/ThenComesFamily?fref=ts</a><br />
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For more information and understanding the disease of infertility, check out:<br />
<a href="http://www.resolve.org/about-infertility/what-is-infertility/">http://www.resolve.org/about-infertility/what-is-infertility/</a><br />
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For more information about NIAW go here:<br />
<a href="http://www.resolve.org/national-infertility-awareness-week/about.html">http://www.resolve.org/national-infertility-awareness-week/about.html</a><br />
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For Friends and Family of those who suffer from infertility, click here:<br />
<a href="http://www.resolve.org/support/for-family--friends/">http://www.resolve.org/support/for-family--friends/</a><br />
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Gradually, the disappointment of being unable to participate in the study has worn off and it is time to move forward.<br />
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After lots of conversations between Steve and I, exploring the possibility of NaPro surgery and discovering that it won't work for me and a phone consult with my new doctor, we have decided to move forward with a May/June IVF cycle! We are finally going to have a chance at conceiving Baby Lane!<br />
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It's exciting and scary at the same time. My doctor believes that we have an excellent chance of being successful with one attempt and our chances are even greater with one round of IVF and a (hopefully not needed) second round with an FET (frozen embryo transfer).<br />
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We will start the ball rolling with blood tests at the end of the week and I'll be going in to meet with my doctor in about two weeks for a saline sonogram to kick things off... which is when payment is due (gulp). We've had so many generous donations to our IVF Fund and appreciate them greatly. We wouldn't be able to move forward without them. Now, we're in our final push for fund raising and every little bit helps (and I really do mean ANY, from $0.50 to $20, we will be grateful)!<br />
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If you'd like to contribute, check out <a href="http://thequestforivf.mydagsite.com/" target="_blank">our fundraising site here</a>.<br />
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Going through infertility treatments has a lot of ups and downs and sadly, I've experienced another down. Unfortunately it looks like the study is going to close earlier than expected which means I will not be able to participate.<br />
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While we are disappointed, we knew that we weren't guaranteed a spot until I was able to complete my blood work. It's frustrating to feel like we've been shut down every time we've tried something new but that does not mean we are giving up! We will continue to save and fund-raise until we reach our goal and realize our dream. <br />
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Thank you for all for your continued support!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-90676199588918427842015-02-21T10:38:00.000-08:002015-02-21T10:38:01.304-08:00Finally Getting Closer!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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In the fall, a friend told me about a clinical trial for a new IVF medication but study participants have to be between the ages of 35 and 42. I was still 34 so I couldn't qualify for the study and I pushed it from my mind. Fast forward to a few weeks ago, I was drinking some coffee and starting my day when a question popped into my head, "I will be 35 in a few weeks, I wonder if that study is still running?" I looked up the study online and discovered that it is still going on and that a clinic in Reno is participating. I immediately called the clinic, explained my situation and was put on hold. When the receptionist came back she asked me a few more questions and scheduled me for a consult! The deadline for participant enrollment is at the end of March and they wanted to fit me in for an appointment as soon as they had one available. <br />
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I was elated. Not only could this be our chance to do IVF, but the study is for a new medication that would be more affordable than the current medications used during a typical IVF cycle. Even if it doesn't work for me, I could be given the opportunity to provide valuable information to the medical community as they develop new and better medications to use in the IVF process. In addition, the study covers the cost of the most expensive medication used in IVF and offers a discount for the procedure.<br />
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On our appointment day, Steve and I drove the two hours to Reno to meet with our (potential) new doctor and staff. Unfortunately, suffering from infertility and going through multiple failed rounds of treatments has left me overly prepared for disappointment. While I had hope, I am a realist. The criteria for disqualifying study candidates is long and the closer we got the clinic, the more certain I was that I would not meet the criterion for becoming a participant. <br />
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At our appointment, we met the nurse and doctor with whom I would be working. They were both very nice and put us both at ease. We sat down with the doctor and after an hour of talking, discussing my diagnoses, the vitamins and supplements I take, response to medication, failed treatment cycles and options for moving forward (he is in agreement with my former doctor in recommending IVF with ICSI), he explained the details of the study and said that I am a potential match as a study candidate. After a brief TV ultrasound, he said that everything looks good for moving forward and he gave us all the study paperwork and instructions for when to return.<br />
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At the end of March, I will go back for another ultrasound and blood work. If everything still looks good, I will begin prep for IVF. It is not yet guaranteed that I will be a study participant but so far, so good. It's progress.<br />
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The entire IVF process is not a mad dash, it is more like a slow crawl towards an ever moving finish line. Patients are constantly evaluated, with ultrasounds and blood tests, to determine if the medications are working and how quickly (or sometimes slowly) follicles are developing. Dosages are changed as are expected egg retrieval dates. All-in-all, we expect to travel to and from Reno no fewer than 12 times and the study length is 42 days. We're closer than we've ever been to have a chance to reach our dream of becoming parents and we welcome all the prayers and positive vibes you can spare. It has not been and will not be an easy path but it is one that we are excited to embark upon.<br />
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So, that's my update! We are thrilled at the prospect of finally being able to move forward and are dazzled by the idea that within a year, we could have our own tiny human. We know that we have had many of you praying for us and sending us good thoughts along the way and are grateful for all the love and support everyone has shown us. We cannot express how much it means to know that you all care. Thank you for your continued love and encouragement as you follow our journey, it's what gets us through.<br />
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I will post more blog updates as we go through the final study approval process and then (hopefully) IVF. As always, my main goal with this blog is to inform and educate. I hope you continue to join us on our Quest for Baby Lane.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-6135136993188448102014-10-13T14:31:00.000-07:002014-10-14T09:20:42.988-07:00Cast off the Island of Fertiles, Meet Meagan<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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live with it and for those who have never experienced it. I imagine that it’s
mostly because infertility revolves around reproduction, which revolves around
what happens in a couple’s bedroom. That makes it a touchy subject.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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talking about reproduction, they bring it up children all the time without batting an eye: “How long have you been married?” is always followed by, “Do
you have any children?” A seemingly well-meaning question, one asked out of
curiosity with perhaps an attempt to find common ground. Yet that can sometimes
be a difficult or awkward question when asked of someone who is infertile, especially
because the answer, “No.” is often followed up with the question of, “Why not?”
or “When will you have children?” <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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awkward spot. If they answer honestly, “We don’t have children because (insert
IF diagnosis here)” the question asker often feels uncomfortable because they
a) don’t understand what that means, or b) didn't really want to know that much
about your reproductive system. Sometimes, answering the question honestly also
leads to well-intentioned but uneducated advice: “Well, I am sure if you just
relax, it will happen” which is crushing when you have a medical diagnosis for
a condition that prevents you from having children. It implies that “just
relaxing” will take your disease away. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">I’d like to change all that. I would like people
to feel comfortable answering the often asked question. I would like people
know and understand infertility and everything that goes with it. If the
general public has an understanding of what infertility is and what the
treatment options are, as well as an understanding that anyone can be
infertile, it will lead to more compassion and understanding all around.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">This is why, when my online friend Meagan offered
to guest post on this blog, I was delighted and immediately took her up on her
offer. It is important to understand everyone’s story and diagnosis, to hear
their own perspective and outlook, to better understand what other’s go through
so that we may be more sensitive, more understanding and more supportive.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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together. So everyone, meet Meagan!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">Tell us a little about yourself. </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">I am 30 and hubby is 32. We
have been married for 2 years, but have been together for almost 10!! We live
in the Deep South. In the two years we have been married, I have watched
(almost like an outer body experience) my body fail me. Right after we were married
(two weeks) I was diagnosed with a dermoid tumor that had to be surgically
removed. During that surgery it was discovered I had Stage 2 Endometriosis. We
were told that if we were going to have kids, it was now or never. We never got
the "honeymoon" period of being newlyweds. We had a missed ectopic
that resulted in another surgery to remove my right tube less than a year after
my previous surgery. This has left me with an abnormal right ovary (I do not
ovulate from this side) and a poly-cystic left ovary and a left tube. In
literal terms, I am at 50% capacity on natural TTC. </span><span style="color: #1f1f1f; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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subject, why do you think that is and what do you think we can do to change
that? </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">I think it's
because it's uncomfortable to talk about. It's deeply personal. IF consumes who
that person is, and no one knows how to deal with that. To change that
perception, we need to educate. I operate under the rule that I cannot get
upset or mad at anyone if they say something insensitive because they do not
know what I am going through. In that regard, I try to live my life according
to that thought. I cannot walk a mile in someone else's shoes if I make no
effort to understand what they are dealing with. That requires me to educate
myself and LISTEN. I think if we can reach the "everyday" person we
will make better headway in raising awareness of IF.<br />
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<span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">How long have you been trying, what is your
diagnosis, what treatment methods have you tried (and if you feel comfortable)
what has been the financial cost of treatment? </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">We have only been trying a
little over a year. In that time, we have been pregnant once that ended in a
missed ectopic. That, in turn, ended up in emergency surgery because of a
partially ruptured right tube. Our IF issues are strictly on me, the double
whammy of Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) and endometriosis have made it so
my RE was amazed we got pg in the first place. Right now, I am at the very
beginning of my IF journey. We are doing Clomid (I am on my third cycle now) with
TI (timed intercourse) and trigger. Our IF journey will lead to IVF, we were
told that in our initial consult and it hasn't changed. It knocks the wind out
of your sails to hear that. Financially, even doing TI (which is cheap
in comparison) is still quite expensive and very time consuming.<br />
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their head already of what treatment will be like. Did anything about treatment
surprise you? </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">Oh gosh, yes!
I remember going into our consult with the RE thinking "this is it! We are
gonna get our baby!!" I figured I would swallow a magic pill and end up
pregnant. I was COMPLETELY wrong!! I didn't think that it would be so time
consuming. I have to plan my life around monitoring appointments, BDing, etc.
It's crazy!! I, in essence, feel like a lab rat every month. Also, I hate
needles and in IF, your life revolves around them.<br />
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matter how hard I try not to let it, it sneaks in and takes over. The thing
about infertility that no one thinks about is that it IS a disease. It affects
a person physically, mentally, and emotionally. I thought I had a lot of
triggers in life being a loss mom, but adding IF on to that and it's
ridiculous!! I have been told so many times that I need to relax and reduce my
stress and I will magically get pregnant. No, I will not if my ovary does not
produce a good enough egg. I think that is where there is a disconnect. Even my
hubby thinks that if I reduce my stress, it will be "fixed". IF
doesn't just go away because stress is reduced or you lose weight or get drunk.
It is still there, lurking, waiting to remind you of what you cannot do.<br />
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infertility? OR Are you open about your infertility? </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">I think for me, it was
because I didn't want to handle the questions. Those that knew about our loss
were already asking if we were going to try again. I wanted to cut those off at
the pass if I could. Not to mention, where I live in the Deep South, having
children is a right of passage. We (women) are raised that having children is
the greatest blessing we can have. I believe that is true, but I do not think
that loss moms or IF moms need to be looked down on because we cannot do what
others can. I do not go around shouting that I am infertile, but if someone
asks, I am very open about what we are dealing with. I do not believe in sugar
coating things and I lay it out straight. It tends to make people think about
those probing questions b/c sometimes the answer is not what they want to
hear.<br />
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Awareness Month but few people know it is also Pregnancy Loss and Remembrance
month. As someone who has experienced a loss, what do you think is the most
important thing for people to know in order to support someone close to them
who has experienced a loss? </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">I just wrote about this in my blog post. I think
the most important thing to do for someone who has experienced loss is to
listen. Be present. There is a lot of stigma associated with pregnancy loss.
Loss moms experience a lot of guilt b/c they feel it's their fault their baby
died. It's not. Being there, being present, and supporting loss parents during
this raw time is the best thing to do. Do not ask if you can do something, do
it. They will thank you, after, when they can breathe again. My best friend
drove 2 hours to be with me after our loss. I could hardly say two words to
her, but she was there for a whole weekend to help us. She cleaned, brought me
flowers, and held my hand. I will never forget that as long as I live. She did
not trivialize what we went through and she held on to our memory with us. A
good thing to do is, if you know loss parents, to light a candle on October
15th. It is National Infant and Pregnancy Loss Remembrance Day. Light a candle
in honor of a child and let that parent know. It will mean more to them than
anything. Any time you can mention their child, you are validating their loss,
reminding them you have not forgotten.<br />
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understand about infertility? </span><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; border: 1pt none windowtext; color: #993399; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; padding: 0in;">It doesn't go away if you "just relax"
or "go on vacation" or "get drunk". It is a disease like
diabetes. It's always there and for some it requires taking daily medications
to have a body even marginally ready for pregnancy. Just for IF, I take 5
different medications and supplements to prepare my body. I have been doing
this since July. It sucks to be reminded daily that I take this pill b/c this
is low or I take this b/c my cycles are stupid. It will never go away and
because of everything we are having to go through, hubby and I are talking
about whether we want more than one child. This is something those unaffected
by IF will never understand. It's heartbreaking and soul shattering and
physically exhausting. It's a roller coaster with more valleys than peeks, but
it jerks you around hard. It's degrading, demeaning, and plants a scarlet
letter across your chest. It's scars, tears, and mourning of hopes and dreams.
Mostly, it's lonely. Couples have been cast off the island of the fertiles.
They have been relegated to the island of misfits, where their intimate life is
figured down to a science.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-53190155761189600022014-09-30T14:16:00.000-07:002014-09-30T14:16:56.714-07:00The Walk of Hope<br />
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"<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'sans serif'; font-size: 13px;">The name "</span><em style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'sans serif'; font-size: 13px;">Walk of Hope</em><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'sans serif'; font-size: 13px;">" embodies the emotion that most people living with infertility feel. They are hopeful their dreams of family come true. Some hope to simply find a peaceful resolution to their infertility journey. A </span><em style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'sans serif'; font-size: 13px;">Walk of Hope </em><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'sans serif'; font-size: 13px;">is an event that represents the infertility journey—a series of small steps, each one filled with hope and a reminder that no one should walk on this journey alone." </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'sans serif';"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><a href="http://familybuilding.resolve.org/site/PageServer?pagename=WOH2011_splash" target="_blank">source</a></span></span></div>
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On Saturday the 20th, I went to <a href="http://familybuilding.resolve.org/site/PageServer?pagename=WOH2011_splash" target="_blank">Resolve's</a> Nor Cal Walk of Hope and it was an awesome experience. For those who don't know, Resolve is The National Infertility Association. They provide support and resources to people with infertility, treatment, those who have experienced a loss, those going through adoption, resources for friends, family members and so much more. They are an awesome resource and advocate for those struggling with infertility.<br />
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I got to the State Capitol at 9am and met up with my sister and niece, checked in and then walked around a bit. There were booths for the local IF clinics and they were giving out all kinds of free gifts; water bottles, t-shirts, pens and paper, reusable grocery bags with their logos on them and Resolve was giving away free FRERs and OPKs! There were also booths for support groups, and a booth for <a href="https://www.facebook.com/artofinfertility" target="_blank">The Art of IF</a>.<br />
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Then, a new friend Janell, met up with us. It was really nice to meet someone in real life who is going through all this and understands the struggles and ups and downs of infertility.<br />
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Around 10am The Resolve staff and MC for the event started the rally and the Sac State cheerleaders got everyone warmed up for the walk. There were prizes awarded to the team with the most people, best dressed fur baby and the team that raised the most money for Resolve. Then it was time for the walk to begin. Everyone lined up with their teams and walked through a big group of cheerleaders cheering us on. It was like at a football game, when they announce the players and they run through the double lines of cheerleaders - pretty cool!<br />
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One of the cool things was that there were women with babies and pregnant women there as well. One of the pregnant women was wearing a shirt that read: "5 Years and 4 Cycles of IVF" it was written across her baby bump. The back of her shirt read: "Don't ever give up." I love to see that those who have struggled with IF hold the rest of us and our feelings in their hearts. We are still supported and cheered on by those who have finally had success.</div>
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It was a really cool experience and I am honored to have been able to take part in such an awesome event.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-30564559837597402932014-09-29T11:39:00.000-07:002014-09-29T11:39:37.535-07:00Guest Poster: Infertility and Adoption<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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One of my biggest goals, in being open about my infertility, is to spread awareness and I love being able to do so through this blog, especially when it becomes an outlet for people to tell their story and offer their perspective. A week and a half ago, I participated in The Walk of Hope (post and pictures coming soon) and also had a dear friend volunteer to share her story here.<br />
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Leah and I became acquainted through the online infertility community and she and her husband have decided to pursue adoption earlier than they had originally planned, due to infertility. Without further ado, here's Leah!<br />
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inviting me to share my story. IF is not something that is often thought of or
discussed, but it’s something many of us struggle with. And while I am so
grateful for the different options that are available now to “treat”
infertility, it’s something that becomes a part of you and forever changes the
way you think and view the world. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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treatment methods have you tried (and if you feel comfortable) what has been the
financial cost of treatment? <o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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2012 and we started trying in earnest in January 2013. After a year without
success, we went to have testing done at the RE. Unfortunately we were
diagnosed with unexplained infertility, which essentially means that the
testing is not advanced enough to actually be able to define the cause. We both
had some borderline lab abnormalities, but nothing that was obviously the cause
of our IF. Prior to having IF, I had decided that I never wanted to undergo IF
treatment, so it was quite the internal struggle after hitting the year mark
and trying to decide what to do next. However, in looking up adoption, I
realized what a huge financial commitment adoption is, so we decided to do a
few treatment cycles of clomid/IUI before pursuing adoption. Unfortunately my
first cycle got cancelled due to over-response on the low dose clomid (which is
why you NEED to be monitored while on clomid. I had 6-7 follies on 50 mg of clomid;
there was no way I would have known without ultrasound monitoring). The next 2
cycles we had 1 and 2 follicles respectively and were able to do the IUI,
however unfortunately both ended in BFNs. We were lucky enough to have
insurance coverage for testing (except for random bills that got rejected
~$5-600), but treatment is 100% OOP for us. For those three cycles, with one
cancelled, we probably spent between $3-4,000. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Many negative, and some that are positive. I have never been as sad/close to
depression as I was while coming to terms with IF and going through failed
treatment cycles. I feel like it’s also made me more pessimistic/bitter.
Sometimes it’s hard to imagine that good things can really happen when you’re
faced with so many failures. On the positive side, I do feel like I’ve become
more empathetic. You never have any idea what people are going through. My
decision to do treatment after deciding that I “never” would also helped me to
appreciate how easy it is to judge people’s decisions, but unless you’ve been
in the place to have to make that decision, you have no idea what you would
really do. I think that’s a really important thing to keep in mind instead of
making snap judgments about others. Another positive is that through IF, I have
met the most amazing, supportive people. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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BFNs. As hard as natural cycle negatives are, the treatment cycles are so much
worse. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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a pretty open book. Plus I hate the stigma that IF has. If you tell someone you
have diabetes or had appendicitis you get offered sympathy. If you tell someone
you have IF they tell you to “relax” or “just get drunk.” Plus, I felt like I
was carrying around this terrible burden that I couldn’t share with anyone.
There are just certain situations that are difficult to be around while
struggling with IF. And at least if people know, there can be some
understanding about why you might not be able to hold your friend’s newborn
baby or why you might leave a baby shower a little early. Luckily, everyone has
been super supportive since I’ve come out about our IF. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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to adoption?</span></b><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; color: #3e454c; font-family: Helvetica, sans-serif;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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been interested in. In an ideal world, we would have had 4 bio children and
then adopted or fostered once our kids were older. So when it came time to
decide, IF treatment or adoption, we were happy to go ahead and get testing
done. If they could just tell us what was wrong and there was a treatment/fix
for it. Unfortunately, we got the dreaded unexplained IF. Which in a way gives
you hope that maybe someday you’ll get pregnant naturally and you just need
more time, but in another way just says they don’t really know what’s wrong or
how to treat it. As I mentioned above, the only thing that really pushed us
towards IF treatment in the first place was cost. After a few failed IUI
cycles, my husband and I had to sit down and have the talk about whether we
were willing to go forward with IVF or adoption. I know that people do more IUI
cycles than we did, but being 100% OOP, we just needed to do something with higher
success rates. The pricing between IVF and adoption around here is about
comparable, especially if you have to do more than one cycle. And since
adoption was what was really in my heart rather than more IF treatment, we decided
to go ahead with adoption at that time.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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journey?</span></b><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; color: #3e454c; font-family: Helvetica, sans-serif;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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adoption are the financial burden and the unpredictability. Going with domestic
infant adoption, you’re looking at pretty significant costs, especially when
you don’t make tons of money and have a lot of school debt. We’ve had to make pretty significant changes
in our money spending patterns – missing my good friend’s wedding in Mexico
being one of them. We also have looked into more unique ways of saving money
like plasma donation. Now, don’t get me wrong, I do not regret any of these
things for one second and it is SO worth it. But on bad days it just seems
unfair to think of much you are financially invested into something that for many
people happens for free. Plus then after you have this huge investment you
still have all the same costs that other parents have. The unpredictability was
also a huge struggle for me. At least with IF, I knew approximately when I was
going to be disappointed every month. With adoption, you can go from having a
totally normal day, to finding out that a baby was born and they need to know
rightthissecond if you’d be interested, to being devastated that the mother
chose someone else all within a 24 hour period. It’s really hard to reconcile
all of those feelings and still go about your normal day. And I guess I’ll add
a third thing that I’ve struggled with: that feeling of not being worthy. At
least with domestic infant adoption, it’s the expectant mother who hand picks
which couple is chosen. Which is great, I’m happy that she has the opportunity
because I’m sure that makes this terribly difficult decision just a little bit
easier. But on the other side as prospective adoptive parents, every time a
parent chooses another couple you suffer from that gnawing fear that you’re not
good enough. And maybe you aren’t really meant to be parents. As someone who
has never in my life won a popularity contest, I had many days that I feared
that we would never be chosen. Even though in my heart I KNOW we’ll be great
parents. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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understand about infertility and moving on to adoption?</span></b><span style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-size: initial; color: #3e454c; font-family: Helvetica, sans-serif;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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of people who like to tell you about their friend xyz who adopted and then all
of a sudden got pregnant. This bothers me both from an infertility perspective
and a hopeful adoptive parent perspective. First, from the infertility
standpoint, this is essentially saying that relaxing or not trying is the cure
for IF. Which, clearly it is not. And it’s so hurtful that people think that’s
an okay suggestion. And secondly, from a hopeful adoptive parent standpoint,
this REALLY bothers me. To me, if feels like people are saying that you’re just
adopting in hopes of having a biologic child. People saying that makes it sound
like the child that I hope to adopt is not as desired as the child I could
carry biologically. And that is absolutely and completely not the truth. I hope
and dream for this child that I can adopt. While I may or may not ever have a
biologic child, which is something that is completely separate from my desire
to adopt. So please, don’t ever, ever tell someone going through the adoption
process that now they’re going to get pregnant. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-27997497439918948812014-07-28T16:07:00.000-07:002014-08-21T10:39:23.032-07:00BE the Change<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">Mahatma Gandhi said: "Be the change you wish to see in the world."</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">He was right. If you want things to change, you have to find your voice and make the change. </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">For a long time I have been complaining about the fact that the law in California that mandates the coverage of infertility treatment, specifically excludes the coverage of IVF. It makes me angry and it's unfair. How can a medical procedure not be covered by medical insurance?</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">I have complained, and complained and COMPLAINED about how ridiculous this is. </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">We do not <i>want</i> to do IVF (it's not exactly a bag of laughs). We are not <i>opting</i> to do IVF rather than have a child naturally. We have no option to be able to conceive except through IVF because I have a <i>medical condition</i>. </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;"> I have whined and moaned and obsessed about the fact that IVF isn't covered by insurance, but have not actually tried to do anything about it because..well...how? How can one person make a difference?</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">Then I saw a news story on change.org and a light bulb went off. I CAN make a difference. I CAN be heard and I can make sure that others are heard as well.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">I have created a petition to change the law that excludes IVF from coverage. You can be the change and sign it and let your voice be heard too! </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;"><a href="https://www.change.org/petitions/senator-ted-gaines-change-the-california-law-that-mandates-the-coverage-of-infertility-treatments-to-require-insurance-companies-to-cover-ivf-for-the-treatment-of-infertility" target="_blank">Let your voice be heard by clicking here</a>.</span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-75489522539158801292014-07-25T11:09:00.000-07:002014-07-25T11:09:06.891-07:00The Waiting Place<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The first time I heard Dr. Seuss's <i>Oh, The Places You'll Go!</i> was at my high school graduation brunch. A friend read it aloud to all of us and I have found, throughout the years, that it applies to pretty much everything in life. There will be hang ups. There will be hard times. There will be times when you just have to wait. Right now, I am in The Waiting Place. It happens a lot during infertility treatment.<br />
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When you first go to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) you are gung-ho and ready to go. You have a long consult, ultrasound and the doctor orders lots and lots of tests. And then you just wait.<br />
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After what seems like forever, you finally start your first round of treatment and for the first two weeks there are a slew of ultrasounds and medications and blood work until you are waiting. Again.<br />
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Any new diagnosis or treatment plan change due to any problems that come up along the way? Guess what? You have to do some more waiting!<br />
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It seems like there is always something for which you have to hurry up and wait.<br />
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Some of you have asked, "When are you doing your IVF?" That is an excellent question and one I wish I was able to answer. We had hoped to be able to "cycle" in August but it looks like that will have to be pushed back a bit. Right now, we are saving money and applying for grants. So here we sit, in the waiting place, hoping to escape soon!<br />
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If you are interested in helping us out of "The Waiting Place" click the link "How to Help" at the top of the page!<br />
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<a href="http://www.worldcat.org/title/oh-the-places-youll-go/oclc/20169007" target="_blank">Citations</a>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-8624318608931273222014-07-17T16:42:00.001-07:002014-07-17T16:42:34.588-07:00The Best Thing About Being InfertileOften times in our lives, we focus on the negative things. It's easy to do. It's easier to give in to the negative emotions, easier to wallow in our sorrows. It is hard to remember that for every dark cloud, there is a silver lining. While there are many difficult things that go with being infertile, there is one spectacular thing: the community.<br />
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As I have mentioned before, there is a large online support system for women with infertility and throughout my journey I have come across many amazing women who offer unwavering love and support.<br />
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An example of this support came for me at an unexpected moment from a woman I have never met in real life. Caroline, fellow blogger from <a href="http://in-due-time.com/" target="_blank">In Due Time</a>, made me an offer I couldn't refuse. As a Stylist for Stella & Dot she offered to host a Trunk Party to fund raise for our infertility treatments! 20% of the profit from purchases made will go towards our Quest for Baby Lane. I was so touched by her offer and surprised by her generosity for a couple she's never met. It reminded me that there is hope and support around every corner.<br />
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To participate and shop for a cause, click the link below and get to shopping! You don't have to wait until the 1st, you can start shopping online, today through August 22nd. And don't forget to share it with your friends! Look good and feel good about where your money is going!<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-71729949176832815472014-06-30T15:27:00.000-07:002014-06-30T15:27:54.860-07:00Breaking the Silence<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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When I was first received my IF diagnosis, I did what any normal person would do and scoured the Internet for resources and answers. For hours. And days. While <strike>obsessing</strike> researching, I discovered a multitude of support networks online. It was like an underworld for infertiles! It took a while to find the right one for me but soon, I had found a group of incredibly supportive women, all at different stages in their journey and all knowledgeable about a plethora of topics revolving around treatment options, diagnosis and medications.<br />
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One of my goals (besides raising money, <a href="http://thequestforivf.mydagsite.com/" target="_blank">click here to donate</a>), in being open about our infertility journey, is to raise awareness about infertility and what women who suffer with this disease go through. One of the reasons that Infertility is such a taboo topic is because people don't really know that much the diseases that affect a woman's fertility AND they don't understand the treatments.<br />
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To help raise awareness and combat disinformation, some of the ladies I know have offered to open up about their infertility, treatment, journey so far and plans for the future.<br />
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So, without any further ado, please welcome, my friend Kate!<br />
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Kate, How long have you been trying, what is your diagnosis, what treatment methods have you tried (and if you feel comfortable) what has been the financial cost of treatment?<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>We have been TTC since August 2011. After going off the pill and not having a period, we went to the doctor to figure out what was wrong. After a series of tests and ultrasounds, it was determined that I have hypothyroidism and PCOS. My husband also had a sperm analysis and that was deemed to be good.<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: 'Courier New';">o<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>After that we started medicated cycles.<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Wingdings;">§<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>3 clomid and injectable cycles with triggers<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>We discovered during this IUI that my husband’s good count is gone. The count and motility were down to basically nothing.<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>Sperm count increased and had better motility<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: 'Courier New';">o<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>After this many cycles and no baby, we decided to take a much needed break. Financially, these cycles cost about $1000-$1200 each- including monitoring and medications. Additionally, I traveled to St. Louis Mo (4 hours away) for each monitoring appointment.<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>I have a hard time being around children nowadays. It is physically painful to see them (especially my friend’s children) and makes my heart ache. I have lost friends over this battle due to comments they have made. Recently a friend of mine who knows every step of our journey told me that she “wishes I would hurry up and have kids so we can be in the same place in our lives”. I would if I could!<u></u><u></u></div>
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What made you decide to “come out” about your infertility? OR Are you open about your infertility?<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>I was fairly quiet about my journey, but I wouldn’t say I wasn’t open. This year at Christmas my sister put together an indiegogo fundraiser for me. She was able to raise $600 and surprise me with me it. After that, I have been very open. I have a blog that I kept updated and linked to my Facebook account, but I haven’t posted since our break started.<u></u><u></u></div>
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What made you want to do IVF?<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>We have not decided to move onto IVF at this time. Right now we are seriously considering a childfree lifestyle.<u></u><u></u></div>
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What is the hardest part about treatment?<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>The hardest part about treatment would be all the hormones raging through you. They gave me the worst mood swings ever!! I felt so bad for my husband. Look up ecards on Clomid and you will understand. <span style="font-family: Wingdings;">J</span> Honestly, it really took a toll on my marriage.<u></u><u></u></div>
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What is something you would really like people to understand about infertility?<u></u><u></u></div>
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<u></u><span style="font-family: Symbol;">·<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 7pt;"> </span></span><u></u>Infertility is a heartbreaking disease. Please be sensitive about your comments, even those about your own children. There are people out there who would love to be in your shoes.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-29089027979732219652014-06-24T15:36:00.001-07:002014-06-25T08:08:15.475-07:00The Cost of Infertility: We’re Not Just Talking Money<div class="MsoNormal">
Recent research has shown that the stress levels of women
with infertility are on par with women with heart disease, cancer and AIDS.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I liken the feelings of being infertile to those of losing a
loved one. For some time after a loved one dies, you wake up in the morning and
for a split second, everything is ok. You don’t remember that you no longer
have that person in your life, but then it all comes flooding back and although
you get out of bed and continue with your life, you are constantly carrying
this burden of loss in your heart. You
are reminded of that person throughout each day and you mourn them. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Because I have experienced both, I can say with certainty
that being infertile carries a lot of the same emotions. I wake in the morning
and have a blissful moment in which I do not think about the fact that my body
has betrayed me. When the realization
comes rushing back, sometimes it’s like a brick wall and other times it is just
a constant nagging feeling. Some days I don’t think about it too much but then I will see a show on TV or a
Facebook post about a happy family and it will remind me that I can’t have
that. When you are infertile you are mourning the loss of a dream and coping
with the fact that you are unable to procreate.<o:p></o:p></div>
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For me, seeing pregnant women or hearing pregnancy announcements,
does not make me angry. There is a misconception that infertile women are bitter and angry regarding other women's pregnancies. I am not mad at anyone else for getting pregnant. On
the contrary, I am so happy for them and especially happy for those that are
able to do so without medical intervention because I wouldn't wish infertility and treatment on my
worst enemy. I am jealous of their joy though. I am jealous that they get to experience
the joy of motherhood – that overwhelming love that no one can quite explain,
that only a parent can understand. I am jealous that I may never get to
experience that. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Add to those emotions the stress of multiple doctor visits a
month and it is stressful and overwhelming. Most people go to the doctor once a
year, maybe a few more times if they get the flu or a terrible cold. I go at
least twice a month. And these aren’t the kind of appointments in which you
just sit on the table and talk to the doc. Twice a month (at least) women going
through treatment have a date with Mr. Transvaginal ultrasound wand. Let’s just
say it requires that you undress from the waist down and leave it at that. The
best is when the small group in the exam room multiplies because I happen to go
to a clinic that is associated with a medical university. You know what that
means? You guessed it: INTERNS! And third year interns need experience, so occasionally
the doctor will ask if I mind if the intern conducts the exam. This is always
fun because it’s like they are playing pin the tail on the donkey. Like blindfolded, dizzy children, they spend
half the exam just poking around trying to figure out what they are looking for
and the other half commenting on how they’ve “never seen to many cysts,” or “the
amount of scar tissue is unbelievable.”<br />
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The poking doesn’t just stop at the doctor’s office. There are
medications you have to administer to yourself, at home. When I was first told
I would be giving myself injections, I thought, “You’re going to trust <i>me</i> with needles?” It was almost
laughable. And terrifying. The first time I gave myself an injection it took a
half hour before I could get up the nerve to do it. When I finally injected
myself, I was so surprised by the sharp pinch, I pulled the needle out before
injecting the medication and had to re-inject myself! Oops! <o:p></o:p></div>
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Then there is the stress the financial impact of pursuing
treatment has on your life. I find myself feeling guilty for any extras in
life. Want a candy bar? Nope. We need to save the money for IVF. How about
taking a drive to the bay to go see your nieces play softball? Nope, we need to
save the money for gas to drive three hours (each time) for doctor appointments
instead. How about stopping for lunch to break up the drive back from the
Fertility Clinic? Nope, that money we spend at Taco Bell could go towards
treatment. It is difficult to not allow your life to revolve around your
infertility diagnosis when everything you would like to do has to be scrapped
so you can save money to pursue medical treatment. <o:p></o:p></div>
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With other diseases, you are diagnosed and you seek
treatment. The disease and treatment alone are overwhelming but insurance
covers a large majority of the costs of the procedures and medications. Now
imagine being diagnosed with a disease but in order to seek treatment you have
to come up with all of the money to pay for it. The Affordable Care Act
certainly doesn’t cover it. Private insurance won’t either.<o:p></o:p></div>
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While there are loans for infertility treatment available, the interest rates are incredibly high. Just the idea of applying for a
loan is daunting. You find yourself thinking, if I get a loan that I have to
make payments on for two or three or four years, what will I be depriving my
future child of in order to be able to make the loan payments? How will I pay
for their needs and contribute to a college fund and pay for the loan I had to
take just to be able to get my body to work properly so I could have the child
in the first place? Instead of just the normal financial concerns of how to
afford having children, you have to add the amount of money you have to spend
just have the chance to have a child. <o:p></o:p></div>
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And then there is the “Two Week Wait” this is that horrible
time between the procedure (be it IUI or IVF) and when your monthly visitor
should arrive. It is a time when you can do absolutely nothing but wait, second
guess, pray and live your life as if you are pregnant, just in case you are
because you certainly don’t want to drink, eat lunch meat or exercise too
strenuously and do anything that could hurt that little bean that could
potentially be inside you. If you do eat lunch meat or sushi or exercise too
much and the cycle fails, you will forever wonder if it was because of that
piece of salami you popped in your mouth at midnight the night after your IUI.
Is there a medical reason to prove that that could have been the cause?
Absolutely not. Does it matter? Absolutely not.
Sound crazy? Yup. And it is, but that’s what it comes down to when you
are infertile, second guessing every move you make in your everyday life and
wondering what you could do differently to change the fact that you cannot get
pregnant. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Sometimes it gets to be too much but at those times you just
have to remind yourself what’s a stake. If you don’t at least try, you don’t
have the possibility of one day holding a child of your own in your arms. For
every disappointment, there is that hope and it is that hope that keeps me
going. If all the doctor visits and money spent and depression and craziness
and despair means that I will someday hold my own tiny human, I’d do it a
thousand times and then a thousand times again. For our child, I’ll move
mountains. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-13986024799772405392014-06-13T14:23:00.000-07:002014-06-13T14:23:05.435-07:00Response!Wow! I would just like to take a moment and say thank you to everyone who commented on our situation on Facebook, for everyone sending love and prayers and those of you who have already donated to our IVF fund. We have had an amazing response and we are both so touched by the outpouring of love, even from those we don't know, except through the internet.<br />
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When I first thought of the idea to talk about my infertility and to try and raise funds for IVF, I wasn't sure what the response would be and am overwhelmed by the amount of support we have received in just a few short days. Our journey has been long and difficult and all of your responses have given me the strength to continue and make me feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel.<br />
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We have opened a Zazzle store with products to help raise awareness about infertility, the profits from which will go to our IVF Fund. In addition, we will be opening an Etsy shop with hand blown glass jewelry Steve and I are making specially for infertility awareness as well as some necklaces with decorative glass pendants. If you would be interested in purchasing any of these products, see the tab above for our Zazzle store and check back soon for the link to our Etsy shop!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01489813704090443666noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6489757261208883409.post-59079656486497096752014-06-09T17:44:00.003-07:002014-06-09T22:37:38.480-07:00Our Story<div class="MsoNormal">
Steve and I have been blessed in many ways. We have 23
amazing animals (dogs, cats, horses, goats and chickens) and live in the
beautiful foothills of the Sierra Nevada’s in Northern California. We have our
health, we are happy and life is good. There is, however, something missing.
There has been for quite some time, and I am sure many of you have noticed: we
have no children. There are no little voices, echoing in our hallways, no
toddlers trying to ride any of the dogs and when we watch Disney movies and I
dance around the kitchen, singing along, it is very much alone (have you seen
Steve dance?). <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>So, why don’t we have
kids?<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Well, we want children, very much. Unfortunately, due to my
endometriosis and Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, we haven’t been able to realize
that dream. We have been working with a
Reproductive Endocrinologist and have been undergoing fertility treatments, but
nothing we have tried so far has worked. We have now come to the point in our
journey of trying to create a tiny human that IVF is our only option. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>What is IVF?</b><o:p></o:p></div>
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The very short, non-scientific version: IVF or in vitro
fertilization is a process in which eggs are retrieved from the mother and
fertilized by the father’s sperm in one of two ways, using traditional IVF:
putting the sperm and egg together and letting the spermies do their thing, or
ICSI: the doctors choose the best sperm and inject it into the egg. The egg is
then left to incubate and become an embryo. After a few days the embryo grows
and is placed back into the woman’s uterus to grow and be nourished and come
back out, nine months later as an adorable tiny human. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>So, why don’t you do
IVF?<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Sadly, IVF is very expensive and is not covered by our
insurance. Until recently, we have been fortunate enough to have some insurance
coverage for my infertility treatments, however, due to recent changes in the
health care system, we will no longer even have the coverage that we once
did. While our policy says that it
covers “50% of the diagnosis and treatment of infertility” there is a large
list of exclusions including: medications for the treatment of infertility,
artificial insemination and IVF. So basically, it doesn’t cover anything at
all. While the little coverage it does offer is somewhat helpful for testing,
it does not help people like me with blocked tubes and scar tissue build up
from endometriosis. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>What about the risk
of multiples with IVF? What do you want, a litter?<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Yes, there is an elevated risk of multiples with the use of
fertility medications and IVF, but there are ways to prevent multiples by only
transferring one or two embryos (depending on the embryo quality). There are a lot of dangers associated with
carrying multiples and doctors do everything they can to prevent HOM (higher
order multiples). Most often, people who get pregnant with a “litter” do so
because they go against doctor’s orders. For example, there is a family who
went through fertility treatments (IUI or Intrauterine Insemination or
Artificial Insemination) who responded too well to the medications. The woman
had far too many mature follicles (eggs) and her doctor cancelled that
treatment cycle. She and her husband were told to abstain or use protection to
avoid HOM. They chose to ignore doctors orders and voila: a litter of children.
In another case, in which a woman had
eight babies, she went to a very irresponsible doctor that choose to implant
far too many embryos. Thankfully, we go to a clinic that works in conjunction
with UC Davis. Our doctors are ethical, well educated and well practiced. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>What happens if you
have lots of embryos? Would you just throw the ones you don’t use away, or
leave them in deep freeze forever?<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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Absolutely not. We believe that life is created when sperm meets egg. Just throwing away or freezing our embryos forever would be
like throwing away a tiny human or freezing one forever! There are a few
options for us: Any extra eggs retrieved, that we didn't use during this
cycle to achieve pregnancy, can be frozen for us to use to be able to give our
potential child a sibling, later. The cost of a frozen embryo transfer is much
less that the full cost of another cycle of IVF. Also, if we were to have more
embryos than we wanted to use for ourselves, we could donate the embryos to
another couple struggling with having a child that has egg quality issues. <o:p></o:p></div>
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else you can do?<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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There is a surgery, called a laporoscopy, that helps with
the removal of that scar tissue. I have had this surgery twice and while it has
helped alleviate a lot of discomfort, the doctors cannot remove the tissue
surrounding my ovaries or blocking my tubes without the risk of damaging them
and creating further problems with my fertility. Hence my doctor’s
recommendation that we do IVF.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Why don’t you just
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That’s a good question and some day we might, but for now,
we would like to try and have our own biological child. Plus, adoption is very
expensive (more so than IVF) and the wait time to adopt a baby in the US is
four to five years.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>I think you two will
be excellent parents. What can I do to help?</b><o:p></o:p></div>
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Well, we are asking people to help fund our IVF procedure by
<a href="http://thequestforivf.mydagsite.com/" target="_blank">DONATING HERE</a> or by using <a href="https://www.paypal.com/us/webapps/mpp/send-money-online" target="_blank">PayPal's</a> "Send" option, to Daydrmsam@gmail.com. Any amount will help. At our clinic, one cycle of retrieval and
embryo transfer costs $9,500 (an additional cost for ICSI is $1,500) plus the
cost of medications, which is an additional $6,000-8,000. While we have applied
for grants and the Compassionate Care medication program, so have a lot of
other couples and they are difficult to get. We are trying to fundraise the
full amount of $17,500. While we have the means to care for a child, we don’t
have such a large amount of money at our disposal and financing options for
treatment have high interest rates. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>I would like to help,
but don’t feel comfortable donating through a website.</b><o:p></o:p></div>
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Please feel free to email us at <a href="mailto:Daydrmsam@gmail.com">Daydrmsam@gmail.com</a> and I would be happy
to send you our address and you can mail us a check or money.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>I’m sorry you’re
going through this. I don’t know what to say.</b><o:p></o:p></div>
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Battling infertility is hard and people often don’t know how
to comfort their friends and loved ones who are going through this difficult
journey. Here are some resources to help you know what to say, and what not to
say, to people struggling with infertility: http://www.resolve.org/support-and-services/for-family--friends/<o:p></o:p></div>
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